Firing neurons

Renji is at the vet this morning.

Yesterday, I came home, and he was acting like he was hurt. We figured that he and Frank had just been playing and things got too rough, because sometimes Frank doesn't realize that Butt Bites HURT. So we put Renji in the bathroom with a blanket, some food, water and a cleaned litter box, so that he could rest without being Frank-harassed.

( Okay, it's a little squicky here )

I realized something was definitely wrong then, by the way he was acting. (He's not shy about peeing with me in the room, so I knew that wasn't it). So I took him to the vet as soon as they opened this morning. She says he has some crystals, and he's definitely blocked.

So he's being sedated and having a kitty catheter put in, to drain his bladder and hopefully remove the crystals. The nice vet lady said that she wasn't sure how long this could take; it all depends on how many crystals he has. If there aren't many, he might could come home today? If it takes longer, he'll have to go to the 24hour Emergency Animal Clinic for a little while.

At any rate, the vet says that we caught it in time, before it got really bad. She said that waiting too long could have made his bladder rupture (which would have been fatal). :(

So please, send some well-wishing thoughts to poor Mister Renji, if you don't mind. Thank you.

Moving toward the light from the darkness doesn't feel like something that should happen quietly. I am sure that there are times when it's an easy transition, like flicking a light switch, but that just doesn't feel right to me. Not right now, at least.

Right now, I need clawing out of the well, tearing off fingertips and fingernails, skinning knees and elbows, wracking sobs and exhaustion. Right now, I need wresting the sun from the jaws of the beast who stole it, the rending of tooth and claw, blood spilled on snow. Right now, I need the red fire of sunrise to be born of my sacrifice.

There are more thoughts, but this is a start.

So, we've decided not to drive down to Virginia tonight. Justin's already put in a call to his lawyer's office to see if it's possible for him to either address the issue of getting the case taken off the docket without J there or to request a continuance due to inclement weather. If this isn't gonna fly, of course, we'll have to haul our asses down there through horrible DC traffic in the middle of the day and likely get there mid-afternoon. I hope this isn't going to be an issue. We should've called sooner, but it takes us so damned long to even reach a decision.

The waiting's always the hardest part.

My first video!

A friend of mine got laid off today, due to downsizing. It sucks, especially at this time of year.

What I need from you all is any possible job leads in the NorCal/Bay Area, or remote work. My friend has 3 years experience in account management/client services for a cdn/IP/colo company (but she is open to just about anything right now).

If you have anything, or know of anyone who has anything, please let me know.

Totally slacking for the last fifteen minutes of work. Today was relentless, even more so than yesterday or Friday, both of which kicked my ass really fucking hard. I don't like these changes here at work one goddamned bit. I used to feel like I was getting shit done. Now, I feel like I'm hardly doing anything despite also feeling like I'm working twice as hard.

Compound that with all the non-work related crap--health (hormones help but make me psycho), money (if you're lucky, there'll be cookies for Christmas), court (Monday was supposed to be the case being removed from the docket, but with the delay in getting things paid, I'm really doubting it), cats (Eric's all broken up about Minnie and has called a couple of times in the middle of the night, which is fine, but it's not helping my sleep; Phantom's still full of snot, but... managing), and the Big Spiritual Issue (see earlier posts)--and I just feel like crying all the fucking time. I'm such a pussy.

I'm also getting spoiled. Justin's promised me movies and veggie lasagne and brownie stuff tonight. Cuddling on the couch. Exactly what I need. Exactly.

Hey locals, would you or someone you love appreciate a 6 foot tall Twilight Jacob dude?

http://didicam.com/CS/doolie/doolie%20%282%29.jpg Here he is in action!
http://didicam.com/CS/doolie/Img_0507.jpg Here he is getting some action!
http://didicam.com/CS/doolie/Img_0518.jpg He loves the outdoors!

We bought it for a party, he was a stand in for a friend who couldn't make it, now I need to get it out of my living room. $20, makes a great gift to scare the shit out of someone Christmas morning by standing it at the foot of their bed. Despite all the things we did with him, he's in pristine condition.

I haven't cleaned puke off the walls since I first started dating Noah. That was quite the impromptu party last night, holy shit.

Happy Birthday, Ben.