Malakai (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} cuttopieces) wrote,@ 2006-03-01 13:05:00 |
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A new month is upon us
I opened my eyes to March light today. It was unexpected, but no more so than when February crept up only 28 days ago. I could spill words about my family, but thats not my place anymore, theyve destroyed themselves beyond words, and I will be in awe of that moment for a long time. I tried tracing my bloodline about a week ago but ran into the dead end known as my "grandmother" who is alive and well but doesn't even know my name really. She is a grandmother to one instead of the five that she should have been kind to. I really dont know why I call them my family, because they didnt raise me, they didnt teach me anything about life other than what not to do. Getting married July 8th, in Las Vegas, Nevada. Christy has brought me light for 3 years, and I only hope that she can continue to do so for the rest of my days. My mothers health is stable/unstable depending on the day of the week, the level of attention she is getting, and which way the wind is blowing. I now have 7 1/2 years in at the factory. Interesting how time accelerates after 25. I would go into world politics, but thats such a joke these days, I wont waste the words. Writing feels good, make my heart jump and warms the blood. Peace for dreams.
I opened my eyes to March light today. It was unexpected, but no more so than when February crept up only 28 days ago. I could spill words about my family, but thats not my place anymore, theyve destroyed themselves beyond words, and I will be in awe of that moment for a long time. I tried tracing my bloodline about a week ago but ran into the dead end known as my "grandmother" who is alive and well but doesn't even know my name really. She is a grandmother to one instead of the five that she should have been kind to. I really dont know why I call them my family, because they didnt raise me, they didnt teach me anything about life other than what not to do. Getting married July 8th, in Las Vegas, Nevada. Christy has brought me light for 3 years, and I only hope that she can continue to do so for the rest of my days. My mothers health is stable/unstable depending on the day of the week, the level of attention she is getting, and which way the wind is blowing. I now have 7 1/2 years in at the factory. Interesting how time accelerates after 25. I would go into world politics, but thats such a joke these days, I wont waste the words. Writing feels good, make my heart jump and warms the blood. Peace for dreams.
