Firing neurons

I opened my eyes to March light today. It was unexpected, but no more so than when February crept up only 28 days ago. I could spill words about my family, but thats not my place anymore, theyve destroyed themselves beyond words, and I will be in awe of that moment for a long time. I tried tracing my bloodline about a week ago but ran into the dead end known as my "grandmother" who is alive and well but doesn't even know my name really. She is a grandmother to one instead of the five that she should have been kind to. I really dont know why I call them my family, because they didnt raise me, they didnt teach me anything about life other than what not to do. Getting married July 8th, in Las Vegas, Nevada. Christy has brought me light for 3 years, and I only hope that she can continue to do so for the rest of my days. My mothers health is stable/unstable depending on the day of the week, the level of attention she is getting, and which way the wind is blowing. I now have 7 1/2 years in at the factory. Interesting how time accelerates after 25. I would go into world politics, but thats such a joke these days, I wont waste the words. Writing feels good, make my heart jump and warms the blood. Peace for dreams.

woven

www.life.com
www.me.com
www.you.com
.
we are digital
numbers on a page
on a screen
to blind our eyes
from truth in numbers
faith in chaos
we can change the future
by learning from the present
the past is a dead memory
learn and move on
insistent
for brighter lights
faster switches
quicker relays
learn from the number
one
.
our future is coming
babies with bar codes
serial numbers behind your eyes
our present is coming
cloning
another me
another you
fight for your soul
we are technological convenience
easy access lives
for easy access minds
remember the number
one
.
switch
wheres your screen name
when hes got the gun to your head
when they take the children from bed
murder by numbers
and you're surfing the web
.
www.conquest.com
www.war.com
www.famine.com
www.death.com
and then there were four
riding fiber optic horses
looking for a number
is it yours?
are you the one?
.
end
.
Malakai

next stop (reality)
.
My eyes are bleeding between blinks,
leaving a crusted river of scars down my cheeks.
Standing at a crossroad called home,
breathing lifes collected exhaust into hapless lungs
as time passes me by faster with each diesel breath
I pollute your air with. Reality is relative to situations,
to eyes that aren't mine. The road leading forward
is blind with a midnight curl that shows the darkness
of a jungle in heat. Comforting, warm on my skin,
I walk with tired feet always onward.
Looking for the next door to your reality,
the next moment of hope to shatter beneath the weight
of my words. Blood stains the path behind,
a new road home.
.
end
.
Malakai

BURn - written and performed by Trent Reznor, and my motherfucking anthem

he was sweet child good birth weight was quiet and kept to himself

this world rejects me
this world threw me away
this world never gave me a chance
this world gonna have to pay

i don't believe in your institutions
i did what you want me to
i'm like the cancer in the system
i've got a little surprise for you

something inside of me
has opened up its eyes
why did you put it there
did you not realize
this thing inside of me
it screams the loudest sound
sometimes i think i could

burn

burn

i look down at where you’re standing
flock of sheep out on display
with all your lies bumped up around you
i can take them all away

something inside of me
has opened up its eyes
why did you put it there
did you not realize
something inside of me
it screams the loudest sound
sometimes i think i could

i'm gonna burn this whole world down

i'm gonna burn this whole world down

i never was a part of you burn
i was a soldier, i never was a part of you burn
i am corruption, i never was a part of you burn
i am the angel, i never was a part of you burn
of your destruction, i never was a part of you burn
i am perversion, i never was a part of you burn
secret desire, i never was a part of you burn
i am your future, i never was a part of you burn
swallowed up in fire